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又開始憂鬱了

又要開始 ranting alone 了。

過去幾個月過得太開心嗎?或者因該說過得太無憂無慮。也不對,是逃避現實才對。

我現在才發現,我逃避各種各樣的現實。

現實一:婚姻完蛋

現實二:研究不順利

現實三:不上進

現實四:用花錢來取悅自己

現實五:沒貴人幫忙就什麼都做不成

現實六:錯失許多良機。多得不可思議。也應證了我有多廢。

還有很多。

是時候讓憂鬱 take over 然後鄙視自己 然後發奮圖強 然後功德圓滿 然後再廢一陣子 然後再惡性循環地憂鬱。

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breathing difficulty

my heart beats like mad. i dunno what i’ve done. what decision i’ve made. what shall i do next. how wrong is my decision.

i can’t breathe freely and my heart aches from beating too fast.

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Fear of connecting to more people

People will check you out more often, so you cannot be yourself 24 hours a day anymore. Need to be prepared for surprised visit(s).

OMG.

I hope I am just being paranoid.  Stop being so annoying will you?

I am talking to myself T_T

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Fear not

Meditation

Source: MeditationShift

Fear not.

I can do it.

Oooouuuummmmmmpphhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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Apologize to myself

I shouldn’t have said such thing in my previous post. I hereby apologize, to myself. I’m sorry.

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